It’s been too long
Too much on my mind
I don’t recall myself at all
It went so wrong
Too much undefined
Before the last of me dissolved
Asleep
I thought that it was real
I thought that this was life
But I must have been dreaming
I keep
Noticing the threads
Starting to unwind
Someday I will wake up screaming
It’s cut too deep
Too close to the heart
I feel I’m slipping down a hole
What I can’t speak
Is tearing me apart
And I’m afraid that if I go…
To sleep
I’ll think that it was real
I’ll think that this was life
But I must have been dreaming
I keep
Noticing the threads
Starting to unwind
Someday I will wake up screaming
Somebody please
Won’t you pinch me and wake me
Something in dreams
Is attempting to take me
I once believed
All I needed was right there
I want to live
But I’m living a nightmare
Oh, sleep
I thought that you were real
I thought that I was right
But I must have been dreaming
I keep
Tossing in my bed
About to lose my mind
One day I will wake up screaming
vampireweather 
Your poems are torture to read but in a good way, sometimes I feel just as you describe… in truth I think we all go there at some point ..I have woken up screaming . Fear not when you do you can move on! You write such intense and beautiful poetry thank you for sharing. xx
For the first time in my life I am not afraid of nightmares. Things I once considered frightful seem like an entertaining distraction compared to reality. Thank you for your kind words 🙂
I think you must have borrowed my mind when you wrote this. I was thinking something like this just before I read it.
Strangely enough I wrote this months ago in anticipation of feeling this way one day. It seems prophetic now as I read it lol
Painful and scary… sometimes the dream seems so real, that even when you kow you’re finally awake you question yourself, ‘am I awake or do I still dream?’ …. and I have woken screaming, or trying to… my vocal cords won’t allow me….and my limbs are frozen, … but my heart… it beats like a wild thing trying to escape… I think my brain knows just the right things to torture me with… xPenx
Have you ever felt that “reality” seemed too unreal? That one day you would wake up screaming and all of this would be just a dream? hmm….
Oh yes, VW, been there, felt that…wanting to awake from life (or this aspect of it) in the hope that something hadn’t really taken place.. mayhap turn back the clocks… an ability surely in the dreamworld? Trying it now, but no, so this must mean I’m awake… 😉 xx
Or we could be in the Matrix… 😉
a page from my own mind every night. thank you for sharing.
I’m sorry to hear that, but I suppose in a selfish way I’m glad I’m not alone in that lol 🙂
So many times I have felt this way, wonderfully done.
Not a pretty way to feel, but thank you jaded 🙂